My soul has been deprived of peace; I have forgotten what happiness is. Then I thought: My future is lost, as well as my hope from the Lord .
Lamentations 3:17,18 HCSB
Father I may have tough times in life but I pray that I am never without hope, feel forgotten or abandoned. Forgive me for the times I may feel punished or alone. You know my heart Lord. Forgive me for my weakness and limited thinking.
Forgive me for putting limitations on myself due to my age, for I know that also means I believe You are limited in Your capability to make possible all things.
Forgive me for not believing at all times that You will bless me with the things I need before the things I want, and that anything meant for me will never be given to someone else. I pray for strength and courage today and all days. Amen.
There are times when I feel as though the things I want most in life may never be awarded to me, and then other times I feel as though the reason I don’t have it is because I’m still not ready to possess that gift from God.
It hurts when my feelings get darker and I then focus on the belief that the reason I don’t have what I want is because I’m being punished for a past sin. Those moments I cry out for forgiveness because God’s Word says that in our repentance comes His forgiveness, and an erasure of the wrong we have done.
When my thoughts and feelings go dark I know that the “enemy” is working overtime and I give it power by focusing and dwelling on the darkness, rather than rebuking it and calling in God’s Light.
There are three things in life that I’ve always wanted since I was a small child, and I’ve come close a couple of times to having these things and then it doesn’t happen due to decisions I have made and what I have believed to be God’s voice redirecting me. I have to trust and believe that I made the right decisions because my life would definitely be different now had I pursued those other paths.
Had I pursued those other paths I would not have continued my education in pursuit of my PhD, or taken part in certain activities and with specific people. My life would have been even more of a struggle, and I’m not sure if I would have heard and answered God’s calling for me to begin this Breaking Bread message.
So even in pain and fear I am grateful for what God has done for me, helped me to see, helped me to avoid, and helped me to embrace. Each day I am working on believing and having faith that the three things I want most will be rightfully, lovingly, and richly blessed upon me—if that is God’s will. I must never doubt Him.
Where are you in your journey? How strong is your faith? How quickly can you identify and rebuke the “enemy’s” advances upon you?
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